so yesterday

This was like 2 years ago with my newbie/kental face.

Do take your time to read this post [:

If you think you've got more problems to face then I have, wait till you hear my story.
And since I lost th only listening ear I have, I'd just post them here .

Its all a misunderstanding i guess. In the end I really didnt lose my friends but I did lost one who got sick of listening to me complain. Kay, I'm sorry for dragging her into this. Now, i wont be a third party anymore. Things we'll get normal in no time with them together not arguing about anything that has to do with me. I'll keep secrets to myself & my diary. Yeah, I can live with that (:

Apart from that, I wasnt one of those selected to go to Indonesia. Yeah, im sucky at the Malay Language. Besides, Cikgu Mislimah said that my chances of going wont be very high. Atleast I was warned very early. So yeah I had to listen to my friends talk about the fun things their gonna do there. I was crying inside & hoping to say "SHUT UP LAH!". Ofcourse I didnt, I felt seriously happy for them. Heh.

Plus that day was also the day that I broke his heart. Well, did i ? I'm sorry, for hypnotizing/brainwashing you. And it doesnt has anything to do with the bloodyhell jerk who I swear can never love him again but still in my mind. Yeah, understand me. Im using upside down English, LOL. Its for the best I guess, his taking his 'Ns' while I'm really having a hard time coping with POA & A Maths at the same time. I kinda feel bad for rejecting. I mean seriously. The only guy since the last 5 months who claims that he cares & understands me, and i turned him down. Haiz. Atleast things with me & him are going fine now. Yeah dude, we're tight as homies.

Lastly, 2 days ago when all this happen, I was crying the whole day at home till my mum scolded me for having to much self-pity. Yeah, thanks alot for making things much worse . I spent the whole day in my room & I fell asleep on the floor at 9.30.

The only good thing which happened that day was getting 16/18 for my POA test. Yay.

I hope things will get better later at Khairiyah's crib. Its her belated birthday party & I was the one who invited myself. HA-HA ! Ofcourse, I asked her first lah.

Kay that was, pffffffffft Thursday . Yesterday rocked abit .

Training was fun, especially during Evacuation when we have to spell our name with the radio signal word thing. Yknowyknow the Alpha Brava Charlie Delta Echo Foxtrot blablablah . And Afifah & Zul missed a letter and had to say out all the words from A-Z . ROFL . Yeah it was the first time I laughed so much since Thursday . 17th is the stepping down ceremony . In my case I would be stepping up bebeh ! Doesnt matter whose the Ex-Cos . Congrats to whoever lah ekh !

Today otw home, I met Haizrul dressing very smartly . He said something but I couldnt hear so i just grinned very widely .

So yeah that was my oring week, yawn.

Till then, take care luves !