Outsiders sucks

You know what, I'm feeling very tempted to delete this blog. It's so full of memories which I've been wanting to forget. But the thing is, I'm supposed to be learning from my pass, not running away from it. And no matter how much I try to forget my past, it'll still be there, at the corner of my brain.

And today sucks so badly that I wished today (or yesterday) didn't happened. This hurts more than any other heartbreak I've been through. It hurts so much that I can't cry. I can't feel happy and betrayed at the same time. I can't pretend that everything will be fine because in this sort of situation, it always ends the same and someone will always get hurt.

I'm sorry. But I can't be there for you like before, I can't love you like before and I can't be friends with you like before. But I doubt that you even need me now.